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Chapter 10 - BREATHE

One year later, I stood for twenty-three seconds.

Faith timed it.

I hated that.

“Twenty-three.”

“I can count.”

“You were busy.”

“I was standing.”

“Exactly.”

Marcus Lee released the gait belt but kept one hand near it.

My knees trembled inside lightweight braces.

A cane stood beside me.

The wheelchair waited three feet away.

Not hidden.

Not shameful.

Mine.

I lowered myself carefully.

Faith clapped.

I glared.

She clapped louder.

Elena laughed from the therapy table across the room.

Her laugh still surprised Faith.

Some parts of her mother had returned.

Some had not.

Elena remembered Faith’s childhood in flashes.

Jonah’s birth almost completely.

Caleb’s face every day.

She did not remember the eight years at the Carter center consistently.

Dr. Patel said that might be mercy.

Faith disagreed.

Then apologized for disagreeing with mercy.

That was Faith.

The Carter Foundation Rehabilitation Center no longer belonged to me.

Not exactly.

After investigators uncovered Derek’s network, I dissolved the old board.

A court-approved independent nonprofit took control.

Patient advocates held voting seats.

So did medical ethics officers.

Faith worked there now three days a week after completing her certification, but she refused a management role while I remained a major donor.

“Conflict,” she said.

I called it unnecessary caution.

She called me a recovering control addict.

Both were probably true.

The center had a new name.

Willis-Carter Recovery Institute.

I objected to my name.

Faith objected to hers.

Elena settled it by saying both families had made enough mess there to pay rent on the sign.

Nobody argued with Elena anymore.

Jonah worked for a commercial electrical company.

Legally.

He still had an alarming interest in locks.

His old charges were dismissed after evidence showed Pike planted part of the case and suppressed exculpatory records.

Pike pleaded guilty.

Derek testified against Gabriel.

Gabriel went to trial.

The original Carter ledger proved he had retained economic rights he could have claimed legally for years.

Instead he chose extortion, gun trafficking, kidnapping, medical imprisonment, and conspiracy.

He was convicted.

The irony would have amused my father.

Gabriel could have gotten rich by filling out paperwork.

Instead he built a criminal war because paperwork felt like surrender.

Vincent pleaded guilty to obstruction and illegal financial transfers.

He avoided charges tied directly to my attack because evidence supported what he told us: he changed the route without knowing the ambush was planned.

That did not make him innocent.

It made his guilt precise.

We had spoken twice.

The first time, I wanted to break his jaw.

The second time, six months later, I told him I did not know whether we would ever be friends again.

He said:

“You being alive is enough.”

I did not forgive him.

Not yet.

Maybe someday.

Carmine was harder.

He had not committed a crime when my father died.

Ballistics reconstructed from old evidence and Elena’s testimony supported the accidental through-shot.

Pike had drawn first.

Carmine had fired to save Elena.

Michael stepped into the line.

The lie afterward was different.

Twelve years of it.

Carmine moved to Indiana.

He sent birthday cards.

I did not return them.

Then, on the anniversary of my father’s death, I called.

We talked for four minutes.

Neither of us said forgiveness.

But four minutes was more than zero.

That was how most real healing worked.

Not grand gestures.

Numbers moving slowly away from zero.

My own legal reckoning came too.

Opening the ledger exposed old Carter arrangements.

Bribes made before I took control.

Some after.

Payments I authorized knowing exactly what they purchased.

I cooperated.

Paid enormous penalties.

Sold three clubs.

Exited dock contracts built on corruption.

No prison, after agreements that lawyers described in language too long for ordinary humans.

Some men called me weak.

Some left.

A few threatened me.

I documented threats now.

Faith found that hilarious.

“The most feared man in Chicago learned paperwork.”

“I always knew paperwork.”

“You used to solve problems with Carmine.”

“Paperwork is cheaper.”

“Growth.”

I still ran legitimate real estate, restaurants, and logistics businesses.

Smaller.

Less feared.

More boring.

I slept better.

My legs improved.

Not completely.

Doctors stopped using words like impossible.

They also refused words like full recovery.

I could stand with support.

Walk short distances with braces and a cane on good days.

Use my wheelchair most of the time.

The strangest part was that once walking stopped being proof of whether I was still a man, therapy became easier.

Faith understood that before I did.

She never celebrated the chair disappearing.

Because it did not disappear.

She celebrated choices expanding.

That was different.

Our relationship survived too.

Against all reasonable prediction.

We did not move in together for eight months.

Faith insisted on paying her own rent until the lease ended.

I offered to buy the building once.

She did not speak to me for three hours.

I learned.

When we eventually found a house together, it was not my mansion.

I kept the mansion for meetings and security logistics.

We rented a brick house in Lincoln Park.

Faith chose it because the kitchen had terrible cabinets she wanted to repaint.

I chose it because the ground floor had wide doorways.

Neither of us said that part aloud.

Mrs. Gable moved into the coach house after claiming retirement.

Her version of retirement involved arriving every morning and criticizing our groceries.

Elena visited weekends.

Jonah ate everything.

The house was loud.

I had once spent my life making rooms silent.

Now silence usually meant I should check what Jonah had broken.

On a Sunday morning in October, I woke before Faith.

Rain tapped the windows.

For a moment, the sound pulled me back to the mansion.

Her first day.

Cheap boots wet from Chicago rain.

Eviction notice inside her coat.

I turned.

Faith slept beside me.

No fear.

No job contract.

No debt between us.

Just choice.

I touched her shoulder.

Her eyes opened.

“What?”

“Nothing.”

“You woke me for nothing?”

“I was confirming you still complain immediately.”

She hit me with a pillow.

I laughed.

Later, we drove to the cemetery.

Caleb Willis and Michael Carter were buried miles apart, but Faith had decided anniversaries did not care about geography.

We visited both.

At Caleb’s grave, Elena placed flowers.

Jonah stood with his hands in his pockets.

Faith told her father she had renewed her certification.

She told him Elena had laughed at a terrible television commercial.

She told him Jonah finally paid a parking ticket without needing three reminders.

Then she looked at me.

“And Dominic stood twenty-three seconds yesterday.”

I groaned.

“Do not tell dead people my therapy statistics.”

“They deserve updates.”

At my father’s grave, I went alone for the last few feet.

Not because Faith stayed behind.

Because I asked.

I positioned my chair beside the stone.

MICHAEL CARTER.

Father.

Leader.

Liar.

Protector.

All of those could be true.

“I found the ledger.”

Wind moved through the trees.

“You hid it well.”

Nothing.

“I gave it to the government.”

I imagined his irritation.

That made me smile.

“I did not kill Carmine.”

My throat tightened.

“I think that was what you wanted.”

The hardest sentence came last.

“I do not know if I became the man you hoped.”

I looked toward Faith.

She stood beside Elena.

Jonah arguing with Mrs. Gable near the car.

A family assembled from damage, secrets, stubbornness, and choices nobody planned.

“But I am not becoming the man Gabriel wanted.”

That was enough.

When I returned, Faith took my hand.

“Okay?”

“No.”

“Good.”

I smiled.

“You stole that from me.”

“I improve things.”

Back home, I had therapy.

Faith was not my caretaker.

She still attended when she wanted.

Marcus positioned the braces.

“Today?”

“Twenty-five seconds.”

Faith grinned.

“Ambitious.”

“I have a reputation.”

“You threw oatmeal.”

“Ancient history.”

“You were unbearable.”

“Still am.”

“True.”

I gripped the bars.

Marcus counted.

“One.”

I inhaled.

“Two.”

My legs trembled.

“Three.”

I pushed.

Pain came.

Then pressure.

Then balance.

I stood.

Faith watched.

Not pity.

Never pity.

At sixteen seconds my right leg spasmed.

Old panic flashed.

The body remembers fear even after the mind learns better.

Faith’s voice came from across the room.

“Dominic.”

I looked at her.

“Breathe.”

The first day she said that, I obeyed because pain left no room for pride.

Now I obeyed because I trusted her.

One breath.

Then another.

Twenty seconds.

Twenty-one.

Twenty-two.

Twenty-three.

My arms shook.

Twenty-four.

“Breathe.”

Twenty-five.

I lowered myself into the wheelchair.

Faith crossed the room.

She kissed me.

No hesitation.

No employment contract.

No imbalance we had not named.

Just us.

Marcus sighed.

“I am still here.”

“Leave,” I said.

He laughed and left.

Faith sat on the edge of the therapy table.

“Twenty-five.”

“I heard.”

“New record.”

“Yes.”

“Happy?”

I thought about it.

A year ago, walking would have been the only answer.

Now?

“Yes.”

She smiled.

“Good.”

Then she moved my coffee half an inch to the left.

I stared.

She stared back.

“You did that intentionally.”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

“Exposure therapy.”

“That is not what exposure therapy means.”

“I work in healthcare.”

“You coordinate patients.”

“Close enough.”

I moved the cup back.

She moved it again.

We did that three times.

Then I left it crooked.

Faith’s eyebrows rose.

“What?”

“Nothing.”

“That is terrifying.”

I smiled.

The first caretaker after my accident lasted three days.

The second lasted two.

The third cried before lunch.

I made sure none of them stayed because every person who helped me reminded me of what I had lost.

Then Faith Willis arrived needing eight hundred forty-six dollars, carrying an eviction notice and a family secret older than either of us understood.

She did not fix me.

I was never something to fix.

She did something more difficult.

She refused to let my pain become authority.

When I shouted, she stayed herself.

When I ordered, she questioned.

When I needed help, she offered it without turning help into ownership.

And when my leg exploded with pain, she dropped to her knees, put both hands on me, and told Chicago’s most feared crime boss to breathe.

The terrifying part was that I listened.

The surprising part was that I kept listening.

Not because she made me weaker.

Because for the first time in my life, obedience was not fear.

It was trust.

Faith touched my knee.

“Spasm?”

“No.”

“Then what?”

I looked at her hand.

Then at her.

“Nothing.”

She narrowed her eyes.

“You are doing the face.”

“What face?”

“The one where you have feelings and resent them.”

I laughed.

“Breathe, Dominic.”

May you like

I did.

And this time, nothing hurt.

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